You said you understood. You said you wouldn't do this.
I CANNOT BE AROUND HER.
What part of this do you not understand. I cannot imagine how you don't comprehend this. After we had about an hour discussion you still do it. You cannot keep doing this. Not only can I not handle it but neither can our roommates, and it's bad for you too.
You said that she would not be over every night.. but I cannot remember a night when she has not been over.
You said that you understood that you didn't have to babysit.. yet you center your world around her.
You said that you would be careful.. yet she dominates everything.
You cannot even wrap your head around how bad last year was for me. You can't; either that or you don't want to. And 99% of why last year was so horrible was because of her. You don't understand and I guess you won't until it happens to you. And I hate watching you go through it because I can see the tell tale signs; you're crabby constantly, you do things based on if she is going to be there or not, or also if she is drinking or not, she is constantly over, you have not been to bed before 1am in nights.
I am trying to help. I tried to tell you within the first couple days I was here that this wasn't going to fly. I tried to help you find other things to do. I tried to talk to you about disconnecting from her. I tried to tell you that she has to hit bottom, but you WILL NOT LISTEN.
I can't do it anymore. I can't. It is wearing me out and I am not even close to her. After all of this crap, you better not get mad at me for leaving tonight. If you dare, I will call you out on it. I can guarantee that it will not be pretty; because you may not realize this but out of the 4 of us you are the only one that wants her there.
Try. Just try to see it from my side. Try to put yourself where Iw as last year and then have her around all the time. ALL. THE. FREAKING. TIME.
I can't do it. I can't. So sorry that I went upstairs, but I will be here until she is out of MY house.
